Should we plan for the future?

So, here I am about to end another year and reflecting on it. It’s been a little weird, I aint gonna lie.  Things that have happened have surprised me and made me so grateful for the life that is mine.  It may not be the drama free, but I have to own it.

I guess my thoughts are to improvement on myself in the next year and to continue to evolve.  I think one of the things that keeps me stuck in my mire is my fears of financial security.  Does anyone else have that?  I think the economy has a lot of people still spooked and that includes myself.

Job wise?  I’m very good at what I do, I have a great company and wonderful people to work with and put my all into making sure they are successful, because that means I’m successful.  Still, I find myself wishing I win the lottery!  Not that it means I would quit, because I find myself bored when I’m away from work for 2 weeks, but I think if I had no financial issues, it would be easier to date.

Dating for me means I want a man who is successful. I’ve dated men who made $2oo,ooo a year to men who make several million a year.  And the weird thing is, that I felt more comfortable dating the guys that made less.  Isn’t that weird?  Sometimes, I think a guy who makes a shit load of money thinks he’s above the rest of us.  They tend to be the guys that are after everyone,  because they have enough money to do it, and the more successful they are in business, they less secure they are in their personal relationships.

Money isn’t bad, I just don’t want to date because of it, but I find it a factor in my choosing a man.  That fucking sucks. I wish I could let it go and maybe that’s the lesson I need to learn for 2010.  What’s your lesson to learn?  (I like lessons better than resolutions, less threatening!)