Old habits die hard

Reading through my friends facebook posts today and I realize that there is a similarity between some of their guy problems.  We tend to gravitate towards the same type of man.  Why the fuck do we do that?  We know what we hate about the guy we are currently dating, but we find the next guy and he is the same.  You would think we would learn a lesson and change, but we don’t.

I was talking to a good friend yesterday and we were talking about the bad habits our parents had in raising us.  I mean the things that our parents did that hurt us when we were young.  I told her I promised myself way back when, I would never do some of those things to my kids because I knew how much it hurt me.  She told me the same thing about her mom.  Now, as we both are moms, we stayed true to those things we said when we were little and our kids are better for it.

Now, when it comes to guys, we say we are never going to repeat our mistakes, but guess what, we do!  Why can we change one area of our life that caused so much pain, and not another?  Why do our old habits die hard?? Do we keep putting out the vibe that there is a certain type of guy we want, but deep down attract the one that is bad for us?

I know what I want in a man.  Smart, funny, successful, sweet, loving, faithful, strong, independent, protective and not intimidated easily.  Why is it so hard to find all of that in one man?  I have found pieces of them in different guys, but so far have failed to find all in one.  Is it me?  Is it them?

Am I asking for the holy grail of men and am never going to find it?  There was a book written recently about settling for Mr. Okay, is that what this has come too?  I have a lot to offer a man, and am a really good girl.  I have been successful in all other aspects of my life, why do I find this one part of my life so hard to attain? Is it because I’m more focused on the other parts of my life and so it’s not a big priority?

Shit, I don’t know, I do know as I keep going, the relationship section of my life is becoming more of a priority.  Could be because my kids need me less as they move into their senior year, or maybe I’ve been without for a while and am finally missing it?  Maybe if I just stop thinking about it, something good will come from it.  If not, I still have my friends, sissy and kids and thank God I have my glass of wine at night!